Skip to main content

What happened then

I thought I would never talk about what happened a few months ago and that I would try and move past it and live in the present.  Then I saw this quote on Facebook about you being in charge of your own decisions and the consequences of that. I cannot remember the exact quote but it was something about your problems being your fault.
My reaction? REALLY!!!!! ARE YOU KIDDING ME!!!!
Of course I used expletives while saying that but I’m not about to put it here on my “sacred” blog.
My point is that there is no way we are responsible for what happens to us. We cannot even try to put up a brave face sometimes when this horrible thing happens that shatters everything inside us.
I went through a phase that I wasn’t in control of. I didn’t decide to go through it. When I tried to fight, I was made to lose because that was what the time was at that time. No matter what I did, I failed and I was at a point that everything looked bleak and hopeless. I tried to be happy, in fact I got up every day and told myself: Today I’ll be happy.
Guess what? Me deciding that did nothing- zilch! Things would keep going wrong and then a lot worse until it broke me completely. All I had was the hope that someday it would get better.
The universe does not work according to what we want. If it did, I would have never let myself go through something so terrible that it would hurt me and break me at the same time. I wouldn't have allowed some people to come into my life and make me helpless. I wouldn't have let myself be hurt by the words they said and the things they did.
I wouldn't have let myself be in a position where I just broke down. This wasn't and isn't the life I have envisioned for myself.

I can choose to wish happy things but I lack the control and ability to do it. I want nice things to happen to me, to achieve success and be appreciated. But all this can happen with a bit of talent and hard work and a large amount of luck. Loads of it! 

Comments

  1. Hello, we are year one students from Community College of City University of Hong Kong. We are major in translation and interpretation. As we are doing a project about translating a short story in English into Chinese, we would like to ask for your permission to translate your story"Tina's Gimmick".
    Also, we wonder if there is any printed version of your story?And has your story been translated into Chinese before?Finally, will there be any Chinese version of your story within this year?Because we need to make sure there is no Chinese version of "Tina's Gimmick" when we are doing the project.Sorry for bothering you.
    Thank you for your kind attention. We look forward to hearing from you soon:)
    Chim, Sharon, Prudence, Eleanor

    ReplyDelete
  2. Would you mind to contavt me through chimchimchim64@gmail.com?thank you:)

    ReplyDelete

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

The Limehouse Golem- My take on the movie with spoilers!

PLOT SUMMARY: When Elizabeth's husband is found dead, all fingers point to her. But is it really her or the work of a serial killer? If like me, you’ve read hundreds of mysteries and are enthused about Sherlock Holmes tales, THE LIMEHOUSE GOLEM is actually pretty predictable. Set in the Victorian Era, it promises to instil fear in you. Before Jack the Ripper, there was Golem- such is the tagline and you do want it to be the kind of movie that keeps you guessing until the very end as to the true identity of the killer.   Unlike the Jack the Ripper legend, Golem is easily recognizable in the very first instance the character is introduced.

Delirium (2018)— My take on the movie with spoilers!

PLOT SUMMARY: After leaving the asylum and put in house arrest, Tom begins to believe the house is either haunted or he is hallucinating.  Most times, when we think about criminals, we wonder what could possible have prompted them to fall into a life of crime.

Look Away— my take on the movie with spoilers!

Plot Summary: A bullied girl switches places with her reflection. She soon regrets her decision as people start dying.  What matters most? Looks or confidence? When we see someone for the first time, we do notice their looks, the way they dress. Personality and their ability to initiate and hold a conversation comes second, doesn't it? Imagine meeting someone who is good looking but is dull to the core. Now imagine someone with average looks but is someone you can have fun with or have an intellectual conversation. Which seems more attractive? Look Away takes a very bold stand where appearances are concerned. But also about self-confidence. In the end, the only argument it makes is that one cannot possess both attributes. LOOK AWAY Movie Plot  We are introduced to a timid girl, Maria whose father is a plastic surgeon. Her mother is shown to have no say of her own. She is left to watch her husband ridicule his daughter about not being careful with her looks. Maria has a friend Lily